Thursday, January 5, 2012

Happy New Year 2012


As I marked my last entry on my "The Passionate Fashionista" blog I have come to a few facts and a complete realization that since I gained 30 lbs (32 to be exact!) as I stepped in the glam USA, I have to accept the fact that I can no longer ROCK the clothes I used to. I can no longer refer to myself as a fashionista. I cannot carry a clutch while I have a belt bag aka kangaroo pouch. In short, I suck!

So, the demise of my empire will transpire immediately.

Thank you to everyone who followed my blog. I will no longer be on lookbook as well. Not until I win the lottery and have a liposuction. Or at least afford a tummy tuck!

I have enjoyed the year 2011 with all of you. This year 2012 will be about redemption and reinvention. I am still the same me. I will be opening another chapter in my life and I will still be sharing it with you. I hope you understand that I am skipping to another year which I claim to be mine.

Dont get me wrong, I am still PASSIONATE. And I am still a FASHIONISTA. However there will be new aspirations and new endeavors to tread.

Thank you so much.

Wednesday, December 21, 2011

A Not So Preppy Life


I apologize for not blogging as much as I wanted to. I was mourning and I thought I lost my MOJO. This morning I had the urge to write. Thank you for understanding.

Christmas is fast approaching. I blinked and bat my eyelash and all of a sudden its like 4 days to go. Well, I have been quite busy. Beamer put up the Christmas tree and I decorated it before Thanksgiving.

I went shopping for gifts while my husband waited patiently in his car playing poker on his phone. So now I have gifts for everyone except for this particular person. Which reminds me, let me do that today.

We hosted a dinner and I made Bistek Pinoy and Bijon. I think the Bijon was soggy but the Bistek was a "hit". Beamer put up a mini-golf in our apartment and I won! Just like the time we went bowling with his friends and I nailed it! The bad thing was, I didn't even try that much! I always win if I don't try too hard!

There are gazillion things to do for today. Which includes looking for a dress form. Have I told you that I decided to open an online shop? Well, I am now. I am planning to disclose by January 1st. Wish me LUCK!

Have I mentioned I had filling with my new Dentist, Dr. Regenmorter? It was sooooo funny because I was mindset to have a filler and usually in Philippines (where I was born and raised) or Dubai, United Arab Emirates (where I resided for 4 years) I did not have anesthesia. Imagine my surprise when the Dentist pulled out the syringe! I almost fainted and they need to calm me down before I piss my pants. I was so embarrassed but I managed to have a new filling. The Dentist is good! I am scheduled to have a root canal tomorrow at 1:40pm. I am scared as shit! Pardon the language!

Anyway, my new postcards for Christmas is done and we mailed most of it. I didn't use the photo by Phiay Carino with a watermark which I believe she painstakingly edited due to my fat-ness! But a Phiay Carino photograph nonetheless! It has something to do with the color of the dress. Beamer said it was not so Christmas-y. Whatever that means!

I am so excited for our vacay with his family and friends in New York and my fam in New Jersey. I have an intense schedule and I still have to pack the luggage. We will be leaving 23rd and come back 31st. Of course Beamer is stressed. Again.

Have I told you that Beamer bought me a vintage Steve Fabrikant coat for winter? And a Joan Rivers Classic earrings? Awesome!

There are gazillion things to say but for now I am just happy to write again. I am still sad knowing that the rest of my lifetime I will not be able to see a good friend but I came to realize that I have to make the most of this life because it's short and we don't have an inkling of when it will be taken from us.

Keep smiling everyone! Life is good! Let's all get one!

Wednesday, November 30, 2011

Deep Sorrow

Approximately a decade ago I met this guy. He was vibrant and ambitious and driven. This qualities was like a magnet to me. After all, water seeks its own level.

He was on one of my major classes and proved to be my competitor intellectually wise. Although the narcissistic in me believed that I was more. He was the Student President of the Hotel and Restaurant Management Department aka Hoteliers and I (a newbie) was his Vice. That was the start of our budding friendship.

The next year I was the President of the Hoteliers. He was an Advisor. We concocted seminars and fundraisers. We were good at what we do. We got A+ on our thesis. We were competitive. We were dreamers. But most of all, we were realists.

I supported him on his endeavors. He was my rock. He is one of my closest friends. We shared an apartment for like 2 months. When we went to Manila for an interview with the Norwegian Cruise we were room mates at a shabby inn. We helped organized our travel and tours (for Ms. Bueza's class) where we went to Enchanted Kingdom. We even went to Friday's and board the bus tipsy which frustrated our classmates. We love Villa Escudero where we went swimming at the jacuzzi and made fun of the foreigners. We hosted the 1st ever Regional Seminar for Hoteliers. We slept on a veranda floor with our classmates in Laguna.

We used to have drinking spree with Chona, Zhiel, Ricky, Nerissa and Mitch. We talk about nothing. We talk a lot about sensible and senseless things. He told me once while I was wallowing in self-pity that I am lucky in many ways. I apologize if I cannot divulge more of those undisclosed long talks of life.

We had long drinks and love mixing cocktails which we firmly believe to be beneficial for studies. Hey, its for Beverage Management Class. He created the drink, Knoxville. We attended our classmate, Malou Atienza's wedding. We love comedy bars. We love watching movies. We were kindred souls. We love Karaoke at Pong's. We both had A+ on Accounting. Hey, I had a good seat. 

We went to Caramoan Islands when it was still not developed. We shared a room with my sister whom he was hitting on. He loves girls. He loves them young. I used to kid him that. He has always been so much FUN.

When I opted to stay at school and graduate rather than see the world through the cruise line, he already got his degree as he was 2 years my senior in the school. He traveled the world. He has seen it all. He made me proud. We vowed to each other that we will be the best that we can be. And we will be there for each other for confidence boost.

He sent me postcards of his world travels. We saw each other in Dubai when his ship docked. The whole gang strolleduntil wee hours of morning.

Last night I have learned that he died.

Tears were streaming and I have no words. Our mentor, Maam Bevs called me and we were just at loss for words. There is nothing more we can do. We lost a friend. And we can never bring him back.

We were dreamers. We were driven. We were focused. And me losing my focus is like failing him. We used to cheer each other up when we were down. We know we can do anything and be anything in this world of endless possibilities. All we have to do is be patient. And trust the unseen mover of all.

I hope and pray that you are at peace my brother. I hope and pray that what happened to you was not painful. That it was swift. I hope. And that's all that I could do. Hope. And pray. And trust the Lord fully for he has reasons.

I am going to miss you boyfriend. I am going to miss you soooo much.

Rest in peace, Michael Perlado Nacario

I love you. You did great in this world. You were AWESOME.

Thursday, November 24, 2011

Thanksgiving Day 2011


It was a hectic "Thanksgiving" and I am still on the hunt for Christmas gifts. I am almost done though. Almost.

Yesterday, I went shopping with the Hubster and then we headed to have lunch. I told him what pizza flavor I  like and I went straight to the vending machine. There was a little girl who was bugging and begging for a coin. I was appalled but out of annoyance I gave her a coin and left. For some reason I cant take her off my head.

Her mom was carrying a baby and she was strolling around the restaurant by herself. They were seated approximately 10 feet from our table. Then her mother stood and went to the counter telling her not to move out of their table. She saw another family arrive with a baby. She leaped and started saying, "Hi!" to the baby. Then immediately begged for a coin from the parent. This is a family she never knew.

The girl is at least 6 years old. Begging.

If I was in the Philippines it will not be a surprising sight. They are all over the streets. When I was in Dubai, there are absolutely no beggars. But in United States of America? Really?

I know the kid is not really a beggar. But what do you call someone who begs? It kept me thinking today.

Parents can be oblivious of what their kids are doing. They are so busy living their own lives. Giving in to what the kid wants so they can continue living theirs. I am appalled by this behavior. But mostly I am disappointed of how I dealt with the situation.

I should not have succumb with the annoyance. I should have told her "Stranger Danger" and dismissed her. When I gave her the coin it made her realize that whatever she was doing is working. It was wrong of me to enable her.

Like beggars in our streets in my beloved country Philippines, I usually don't give them money. I give them food. That's what they needed. If you give them money they either buy drugs or booze. If you give them money you help them in the path to destruction.

I know it's Thanksgiving. I am thankful for a lot of things need not to be disclosed. But mostly I am thankful for the health of my family and friends. I am thankful for a wonderful and understanding husband. I am thankful to the unseen mover of all for giving everything to me. And more.

Tuesday, November 22, 2011

Turkey for Thanksgiving


Woke up today feeling refreshed and rejuvenated. This is another day for "Domesticated Goddess" to combat. I did a good job yesterday. I made a mean pasta and the Hubster loves it. I always add mushrooms and spam on my pasta with meat sauce. He was adamant with adding cheddar cheese so he opted for the all-time American favorite, Parmesan.

I'm thinking of making some porkchops, Filipino style today. I'm not gonna let your hopes up though because I am feeling a bit nauseous today. And NO! The answer is No! I am not pregster! I am on meds. My liver is slowly killing me. Where the hell is my vodka? Hehehe!

Christmas is fast approaching. But first, there's Thanksgiving. And the most awaited, Black Friday. Shopping, shopping, shopping.

With regards to Thanksgiving, the Hubster will be roasting a turkey. This is one of America's tradition. I on the other hand is not a big fan of our feathery friend. I like Andok's chicken in the Philippines and some fried chicken homemade. But during my 4-year residence in Dubai, we were usually served chicken everyday. To the point that I developed a chicken skin. Really! Its an allergy!

I seldom make chicken dishes here. But I do love a certain store called Mr. Chicken. Its a Portuguese store which caters to their roasted chicken. Really spot-on taste. Never disappoints. I am salivating right now.

Anyway, why cant I have Mr. Chicken on Thanksgiving? Why a Turkey? 

Monday, November 21, 2011

Domesticated Goddess


There are gazillion of things to do and I honestly dont know where to start. I have to finish cleaning the house before Thanksgiving. I also needed to place all the Christmas gifts before December 1st on my Christmas tree. Good thing I'm halfway done with Christmas shopping. Yay!

Last Friday I had a photo shoot with Jamie & Sal. It came out great. At least that's what the Hubster said. 

I have been meaning to write more in my Addicted to High Heels blogs but I am always tied up. I still cant believe I have been married for almost a year. You will be seeing more of what I have been doing on that blog. If I have time.

There are a few things I need to do today and one of them is cooking. I have been salivating on a pasta and I make a mean pasta. I am inspired by Ms. Dainty on her posts on FB. 

I have to go. My body needs breakfast.

Friday, November 18, 2011

Another One Bites the Dust


I am excited for our week-long vacay on December. We'll celebrate "Media Noche" with my fam in New Jersey and Christmas with my in-laws in New York. On the 26th its the Hubster's birthday and on the 28th its our 1st wedding anniversary. I am uber-excited.

Anyway, the news about Demi Moore and Ashton Kutcher's split is actually not a surprise to me. Part of me wanted them together. Demi Moore is H-O-T! Look at her. She is still rockin' it! Ashton is not that cute anymore. And I don't really like the news of him cheating.

Cheating is something that is unacceptable to me. I am a bit paranoid. Okay, I am sooo paranoid. But I guess I trust the Hubster so much that he might get away with it if deemed be. On second thought, not really!

Cheating is a "Dealbreaker!" If he cheats once, he will do it again. And again. And again. One thing I made clear with the Hubster. I catch him once and that's KAPUT! There will be no turning back!

I pride myself as a loyal person. And I expect nothing less in return.